Kerch's posts Kerch on 24 Feb 2007 11:47 am
Feeling stuck in my life
You know the old story about the spider asking the centipede which foot comes first?… and then the poor creature with too many feet just couldn’t figure out how to move at all.
That’s kinda what I feel like.
There are so many things I could be doing — things I should be doing. But instead, I just fritter away time not deciding. There’s a piece of me that thinks it’s all about the lack of structure. You know … If I just had the right big sign to remind me, or if I could just commit to the change I want to make, then I could get on with doing the great things I think I can do.
Yesterday, Leslie and I were talking about my lack of structure. You know, when you work for yourself alone at home it’s hard to make any kind of structure work. Sure when clients come, then I’m all about that. I have no trouble doing the things I’ve committed to others. But when it comes to my own stuff, it’s so easy to imagine something else is more important.
Ok, so if I don’t want this to turn into a pity party, I have to say something useful.
I noticed a post by fellow Carol Ross over at Ordinary Life, Extraordinary Living, She referenced an article posted in American Family Physician
regarding the stages of change. They note:
Behavior change is rarely a discrete, single event; the patient moves gradually from being uninterested (precontemplation stage) to considering a change (contemplation stage) to deciding and preparing to make a change.
I have to get past the uninterested part where I don’t really care to be bothered to change and then through the ambivalence of deciding which for me absolutely is caused by a simultaneous desire to say or do two opposite or conflicting things. And when I’ve done those, then maybe I’ll be ready to prepare to change.
Change is a process. I’m stuck right now between several projects.
Maybe I should try to pay attention to my daily money manager who helped me clean up my end of year finances. She suggested I get clear about what I DO want so I can stop being distracted by all the shiny little things that I COULD do if I just decided any one of them was “the” one.
Oh well. Right now I’m stuck in that place.
I appreciate Leslie’s post about the hipster PDA thing. But for now, I can’t decide what to put in it!
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